0615722 - Chocomint
i am counting about my birthday,
i hope u'll be on my door on 19 and tell me that all the things u did just for joke.
i do miss you
i can write anything more than
i am sorry and i miss you
Hai, how are you Agung Swastika Purnama ?
i'm tired to act like i am strong enough :"(
that's the last message i send on you. simple but i think it full of emotion.
i hate you.
i do . i really do
i don't know who ur friends. how ur day. i dont remember the last time i knew about you
i dont even know who is that girl. i hate you and all your friends
but in other side, i cant even deny what i feel inside
would You help me GOD to fix this condition ?
before the day i lost u twice.
sorry for not writing yesterday. i came home so late after giving a surprise party for my besties :dhea :)
it was fun. really. even though some ppl couldn't come but her boy has been there. she must be so happy.
haha
i wish for yer happiness. whatever it is, u deserve to get the best.
yesterday was a good day too for me. i was making a delivery order to my boy. kinda of flat. but it was feel good.
one thing that i can't read from him is his attitude. i cant read his mind. he is so unpredictable. how he lift me up and pull me down at the same time.
how could i cant stop loving it ?
call me stupid. but i do trust him.
please please. dont play on me. please dont broke it twice.
u broke it and u fix it. that's why i trust you.
i just cant read, can predict. what do you gonna play tonite? what verse of you i get on my phone ? :(
i know we need a time. please come back like we used to be a friend. best friend.
i miss having u on my morning message. i miss to called you for about 20 times to just wake u up.
i miss the way u look at me and make me feel great.
no matter how bad i hate you. you always make me smile.
RESTATING EVERYTHING. RITE ?
tonite. i have my dinner with my friends. we would to go home asap. but it was raining. we spent our time by talking about the past.
hey, winter. i wonder how are you ? i have just deactived my fb page. so when the nite come, and i cant close my eyes, i just cant look to your page. and find u on my my online friends.
have been six years winter. and how could we're still connecting.
no no no. i just wonder, wont u go home for this spring?
i love my life now winter. i love that boy.
i just miss to talk on the phone to share our days. my faith on u ? no. i think it;s just about my teenager fantasy.
winter. past. u know. i think life will be easier if i have u on my phone.
u are kinda of best adviser that i ever know.
winter. u know. he is so cool like you. :)
I MISS YOU
Hai Tuesday. are u doing good ? as long as i see, u are fine, not rainy today :D well done.
how about me? me ? don't get really well. ehm. my collage was good. overall good.
when i write this post. i feel like mix vegetables juice. healthy but don't have a good taste. i don't like you. i want to remove you. but i know i can't.
ah.. galau malam. rasanya males. capek lah.
anyway i spend my afternoon with opening my fb page.
I found some old pictures and how does it kill me slowly. i loved it. i'm loving it. i'll love it.
me miss our togetherness. with everybody.
old stupido stories that we shared. me miss you a lot. today we dont have any contact and how i hate to wait. let's see how will hold on. because i can't help my self.
ME MISS YOU ALL.
yes, i miss you too ASP :(
before i am starting to write more, i just want to say that relationship here doesn't mean only for lover, but it means for every kind of relationship :D
i believe on process. i do believe. for about this year, since i know you, u teach me a lot about process, to change into something good.
into something better.. and into something do you love.
you're kinda principal holder and i am kinda of let it flow
i am kinda of emotional, u are kinda of silent
but, beside our difference. i always love your presence in my life. i love to see my heart sticking on you. you eyes must be made from kinda of glue, love.
process takes time, doesn't it? and step actually. and i know i'm on that path.
i am trying too hard to be that way again but i don't want to pushed anyone. i just want to take the time. show u that i've been changing. i do what u said.
one thing that so funny from you is the way you said to me that we should press restart button for ours. like my laptop, it called restore and back up.
i'm glad that u easy to forget about your anger but u dont forget good things about me <3
i'll wait. like u said : "i'll be missing you, not always but sure"
Have been a long time, rite? I just read that my last post was on September.
Many things have been changes for this 6 months. i'm on my fourth semester and u cant imagine how terrible . haha . college stuff.
every student always hate to have a home work, don't they ?
i join the executive again for this period. yaaa..too make myself keep busy. because i need to heal my self. and no one can heal better than my self.
One Thing that change my mind alot. to be not be bad tempered like i was before is my breaking up. until now, it still difficult to believe that i and he aren't together anymore . okey, it's too hyperbolic :D
but for healing my self. i'm not lying that is the most difficult thing.
i was bad. but i'm trying to be better person. not because of him - okey.at the first time- but also for myself.
i need to grow up, don't i ?
i was screaming, dumbing, punching on him. but it just the way i love him. i don't lie for the last part that me love him . *soundsoteenagers :D
we got many things that feel so annoying for both of us. we are trapped into something that we don't know and get lost.
i really want to talk with him seriously. we've just started our friendship again after some "silent" months. and i though, with everything that we felt before, passs together, and all the reality that we have some unfinished business, we need to make everything clear, won't we?
because we are not ready for taking forward step but we can't deny there's something on our mind.
god. i just dont want to lose the friendship. because doesn't matter what i have been said and i did. He was my best friend. one of my best dude.
i just want to make my best friend feel good.
Me Love you September. i always do :D
Sunday, 20th of March 2011
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